Some random thoughts- sleep training....

1- I am down 3 pounds since my last weight check post 6 weeks ago... that is good, but dang, I feel like it should have been more!

2- I have been buying Christmas gifts. Yeah, that's right. I mean, how much fun is it to buy 987 things in one month?! Not that much. So alas, I am scouring clearance racks when I see them, and thus far have 2 things... ok, that's not a lot. But it's only July!

I scored this adorableness for Ava on clearance from $10, for $5! For the baby who will be 11 months old at Christmas.... uhhh, that is way too old to even think about.

3- My child has stopped sleeping. We have good nights here and there, and a good night is like so:

7:30- to bed
8- be rocked again after she woke up
1/2- awake to eat
5ish- eat again, then fight mommy for about 20 minutes, then back to sleep in mommy's bed for an hour

So that's a goooood night. A bad night is like so:

7:30ish- to bed
8- up to be rocked
10- up to be rocked
11- up to be rocked, maybe eat
12- mommy usually feeds me now, and prays that it buys her some time
3- up for something
5ish- up to eat, then fight, then back to sleep in mommys bed

The bad nights are outnumbering the good lately. Oh, and don't forget, the kid takes 30 minute naps only.all.day.long.

I am tryyyying to avoid my best friend Dr. Ferber. I am. But he may come for a visit in a month or so. I just cannot take it. I can't be a good mom to both girls on no sleep. I can't spend an hour getting A to sleep, and back to sleep, only to have her wake up and be crabby 15 minutes later. It's not fair to O to make her sit alone for that time so she doesn't chance waking A up. It's not fair to A that I don't have the time to do that :::insert Mommy guilt here:::

I did Ferber with O (aka, worst sleeper ever) at 11 months and vowed to never wait that long again with a subsequent non-sleeping child. I was miserable. And it worked. Fast.

But I am still scared to do it. I just hate it for her. And I feel like it's almost my fault she is the way she is. And now I am making her pay for it to fix it. But I just don't know another way.

That said, I am trying everything that I can do (while taking care of O as well, and giving her fair time) to get her to fix this before we have to go there. But we have like, 4-5 weeks, then, I'm afraid we're going there.

We all need sleep. BTW- I do not expect her to sleep through the night. I will feed her when she is hungry, no problem. But I can't do 5 wakeups between bedtime and midnight. It just is crazy.

4- Ava is sitting up! It's probably adorable


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